Pilgrims

I'm settling and I hate it! It's not so much by choice right now but I don't really know what to do... I don't want to give up what I have but I'm not 100% happy with it either... Gosh this sucks!

Writing

I always tell myself to write it down but to be honest I think I don't do that because by writing it I have to deeply think about it. Acknowledge that it's real and that it exists. When it leaves my head I can no longer deny that it's real or prevent myself from thinking and ultimately dealing with it... Maybe then writing it down would be better, maybe I'd get through this and stop pretending it doesn't exist... I don't really know what to do about it but I guess until I figure that out I'll just keep dealing with it...