Champagne Before Breakfast

WELL, IT'S STILL
TOO EARLY
 
TO GO TO TIFFANY'S.
 
I GUESS
THE NEXT BEST THING
 
IS A DRINK.
 
YES, I VERY MUCH
NEED A DRINK.
 
BUY ME ONE,
FRED, DARLING?
 
SURE.
 
ONLY PROMISE ME
ONE THING--
 
DON'T TAKE ME HOME
UNTIL I'M DRUNK...
 
UNTIL I'M VERY
DRUNK, INDEED.

SO, MY DARLING FRED,
 
I HAVE TONIGHT MADE
A VERY SERIOUS DECISION.
 
AND WHAT IS THAT?
 
NO LONGER WILL I
PLAY THE FIELD.
 
CONGRATULATIONS.
 
THE FIELD STINKS,
 
BOTH ECONOMICALLY
AND SOCIALLY,
 
AND I'M GIVING IT UP.

Studying is like student and dying put together...

I need to be studying but its been way too long since I've been here. I'd much rather write a bunch of things... how I thought things were getting better... how they clearly aren't... Well I'll come back and write something. Something that means something... Until then, I have to study!

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Implode

For once I thought things were starting to get better and then it's like everything is crashing down around me. I don't even know what I'm doing wrong. I've been busting my ass on my homework, reading for all of my classes before class! I'm trying my best. I've been sick, I've had anxiety... For once I thought I found something that people thought I did well and it turns out thats false. It'd be cool if this totally wasn't happening right now. I don't how much harder I'm supposed to push myself but I guess harder than I am now... Lets hope nothing snaps in half.

Rain

Casablanca or maybe Breakfast at Tiffany's, if my life were like a movie I think things would probably be a whole lot more interesting. 

 I'm dreading for the rain to start. Its not just the rain I hate, the wetness, the cold. Its not that, its the gray. I hate when the world is just gray. I wake up in the morning to a gray sky and it automatically makes it a gray day with a gray mood. I hate those days!

 Rain can be fun though. I like to run and dance in the rain. If you didnt know me when you saw it you might thing I was a crazy, but who knows, maybe I am.

 These pictures make me not as afraid of the rainy season. They kind of put a fun spin on rain and show that it isnt always gray. Too bad here it usually is...

Ah, this makes me miss San Diego so much! Even when it rained there it was still nice. Probably because it only rained maybe one month out of the year and that was pushing it. I always wonder if I would have stayed there. I cant let myself do the what-if game though. It just spins me in circles until I'm dizzy enough to fall down. Its all happened and I cant change it now. Just have to look forward and make the best of what I've already done...

My Heart Only Breaks When Its Beating

How do things get to this point? How do things go from being perfect to complete shambles on the ground. I dont get it. It just doesn't really make sense to me. I've had this song stuck in my head for the past two days and its killing me.

Hope life's been good to you

since you've been gone

I'm doin' fine now--I've finally moved on

It's not so bad--I'm not that sad

I'm not surprised just how well I survived

I'm over the worst, and I feel so alive

I can't complain--I'm free again

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breath--to forget

Don't think I'm lyin' 'round cryin' at night

There's no need to worry, I'm really all right

I've never looked back--as a matter of fact

It only hurts when I breathe

Mmm, no, I've never looked back--

as a matter fact

Hurts when I'm breathing

Breaks when it's beating

Die when I'm dreaming

It only hurts when I breathe 

Its true though. It only hurts when I breathe... I dont know, I just dont know... 

Criminal Minds

What I've learned is that the world is not fair, and people are not just but I can no longer let those people affect me and my days. I cant be upset because they dont  matter. I need to let them go from my life and go on and be happy because I cant let them dictate how I feel about myself. I'm amazing and if they dont think that or want to be a part of my life then so be it. Go away, leave me alone and let me be happy!